Wednesday 12 September 2012

Dormant or Transitional?

Contemplative moment on Climping Beach, West Sussex, during a calming stay with friends.

This blog has been quiet for quite a while, because I'm not sure where I'm going with it.  In fact, I'm not sure where I'm going, period. 

I'm living through a changing season right now, a transitional time.  Big stuff is happening in my life.  Aging parents, changing work patterns, new health issues, new attitudes, new priorities.

In a few weeks I shall turn 45.  My life and my soul have changed in ways I could never have imagined when I went through the trauma of turning 40.  I always thought my 40s would be my best period, and they are.  But often, things are tough.  Change is never easy, but it is what it is.

Long term planning is now becoming a priority.  So is cutting the crap away.  Being genuinely myself.  Living my dreams instead of continually talking about them and being too scared to do anything about them.  Allowing myself to be creative every day.  Getting out of my own way.

These are all big things, and they take a lot of energy.  Thats how change is.

In two days I am off for a holiday on a Scottish island.  It will be a time of rest and reflection.  I hope it will give me and my husband a break, but also some perspective.  I hope it will offer a time when I can work out where I am going for the next three months, six months, a year, a lifetime. Most of all, I hope I will find some peace there.  And when I come back, there will be lots of pictures to share, and no doubt articles to write for this this blog about the experience.

So stick with me.  Great things will come out of this change, I promise.